As I lay here on this cold unforgiving floor,
Every inch of my body convulsing with the terror of my own tears.
Each breath struggling to free itself from me,
The thoughts of you and your being fill my soul…
I should be scared, fearful and unforgiving.
I should be hurt and shamed.
My body is broken,
of which my mind cannot explain.
There are no words,
Yet still the tears stream down my face.
You know not what you have done to me
And still I am drawn to you, never to let go.
Needles piercing, tearing, shredding,
Every beat my heart writhing within my chest,
This pain I feel is unknown yet thrilling and true.
The questions I could not answer verbally
Were all the answers you needed in the solace of my being
The pain slowly subsides
And only the happiness remains…
Forever and always my love
Never to my detriment
Only to my exuberance
I am owned.